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Story: Levels of Light

“The essence of brightness is always elusive and hidden;  we live between endless layers of darkening and occasionally brightening veils.” John O’Donohue

Knowing can’t be blasted into being: blasts of light might shock the system and dredge up secrets but the effect is manufactured and often temporary; knots don’t magically untie at their revelation; and in response, and to protect  exposed tender roots we will often hide what moves us, to a deeper, murkier place.

Coming Soon: A Fall Replay

The things we keep

Years ago I broke a pale yellow water pitcher that I’d received from a close childhood friend.  We’d lost our connection but I kept the shards in a drawer, feeling pangs of regret and guilt for my carelessness.  I asked my mom how I might fix the pitcher. She suggested I repair my friendship instead.

A story about regret, my great grandmother and her broken hip, and precious moments.

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October 8, 2021

Fall Replay: 1979

In October 1979 my family emigrated from our small town in Switzerland. The story is about that time, Canadian lunch boxes, and crossing disorienting gaps.

Story: Levels of Light

“The essence of brightness is always elusive and hidden;  we live between endless layers of darkening and occasionally brightening veils.” John O’Donohue

Knowing can’t be blasted into being: blasts of light might shock the system and dredge up secrets but the effect is manufactured and often temporary; knots don’t magically untie at their revelation; and in response, and to protect  exposed tender roots we will often hide what moves us, to a deeper, murkier place.

October 1, 2021

Story 55: Lake Cabonga

When we rounded the corner of a large island the wind struck us. The lake changed to emerald green, then black, darkening clouds were encircled by light, and within minutes the lake was boiling.

Lake Cabonga is about a bumpy canoe trip, fear, faith, hope and trust.

‘Lake Cabonga’ is the last of the Fear series, which also includes: ‘Shadows on the Wall’, ‘Seeds of Doubt’, ‘Magic Spells’ and ‘Potato Bugs’.

Coming Soon: A Fall Replay

1979

In October 1979 my family emigrated from our small town in Switzerland. The story is about that time, Canadian lunch boxes, and crossing disorienting gaps.

September 24, 2021

A Fall Replay: Warts

She sat down and told us that when she was a small girl, growing up in Eastern Europe, she too had warts on her feet. Her mother took her to see a wise woman in the village, who told her to take a bite out of an apple and bury it under the next full moon. According to our doctor, this cured her of her warts. 

Warts is about searching for a cure for warts and other questions and quests. (See Links 4)

Coming Soon: Lake Cabonga

When we rounded the corner of a large island the wind struck us. The lake changed to emerald green, then black, darkening clouds were encircled by light, and within minutes the lake was boiling.

Lake Cabonga is about a bumpy canoe trip, faith, hope and trust.

‘Lake Cabonga’ is the last of the Fear series, which also includes: ‘Shadows on the Wall’, ‘Seeds of Doubt’, ‘Magic Spells’ and ‘Potato Bugs’.

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September 17

Story 55: Potato Bugs

According to legend, some years ago, a powerful gust of wind ripped the net out of the  clutches of the farm hands, lifted the long filmy white tail high into the stormy sky, across and beyond the hedgerows, and over the coolness of the darkly waiting forest.

Potato Bugs is about our attempts to control our world.

‘Potato Bugs’ is part 4 of the Fear series, which also includes: ‘Shadows on the Wall’, ‘Seeds of Doubt’, ‘Magic Spells’ and ‘Lake Cabonga’.

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A Fall Replay: Warts

She sat down and told us that when she was a small girl, growing up in Eastern Europe, she too had warts on her feet. Her mother took her to see a wise woman in the village, who told her to take a bite out of an apple and bury it under the next full moon. According to our doctor, this cured her of her warts. 

Warts is about searching for a cure for warts and other questions and quests. (See Links 4)

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September 3

A Summer Replay:

Lola

Story 10: Lola

I had heard that cats bring dead, or half dead mice, to their human owners to teach them how to hunt. Given our lack of responsive learning,  I have always been impressed by Lola’s patience, her unwillingness to give up on us. But recently I came across a different theory: animals might leave us presents to show their gratitude.

A story about our cat Lola, harvesting brussels sprouts and gratitude. (See Links 3)

Coming Soon: Potato Bugs

According to legend, some years ago, a powerful gust of wind ripped the net out of the  clutches of the farm hands, lifted the long filmy white tail high into the stormy sky, across and beyond the hedgerows, and over the coolness of the darkly waiting forest.

Potato Bugs is about our attempts to control our world.

‘Potato Bugs’ is part Four of the Fear series, which also includes: ‘Shadows on the Wall’, ‘Seeds of Doubt’, and ‘Magic Spells’.

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August 27, 2021

Story: Magic Spells

300 hundred years ago, one of my ancestors sat at his desk at night, in the house in which we both grew up, and copied out strange words and spells and symbols. The many pages show how threatened and insecure people were in their life on earth, though they yearned, as do we,  for assurance and protection. Confidence, optimism and happiness were not  part of the conversation;  people put their faith into religion  and magic spells instead. 

This story is family lore and I remember my grandfather telling us children about the magic book that was kept between the pages of our family bible. In the 1970s, after our family emigrated, a local teacher transcribed the spells and published their account in a small booklet called Zauberspruche, Doktorbucher und andere Schriften.  (See Links 39)

‘Magic Spells’ is part 3 of the Fear series, which also includes: ‘Shadows on the Wall’, ‘Seeds of Doubt’, ‘Potato Bugs’ and ‘Lake Cabonga’.

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A Summer Replay: Lola

I had heard that cats bring dead, or half dead mice, to their human owners to teach them how to hunt. Given our lack of responsive learning,  I have always been impressed by Lola’s patience, her unwillingness to give up on us. But recently I came across a different theory: animals might leave us presents to show their gratitude.

A story about our cat Lola, harvesting brussels sprouts and gratitude. (See Links 3)

August 20, 2021

Long Yoga Nidra: Shoreline

Here is a full length Yoga Nidra about midsummer walk along an early evening shoreline, recorded in a canoe on a lake. Listen for the loon.

A Summer Replay: Path

Last winter a man I met in a small northern community told me that when he was young he would hunt for Caribou with his uncle. One evening, at dusk, he watched as thousands of the large lumbering animals moved not as one, but swirled in all directions. He said that the ground moved and shook with noise and motion. But the caribou don’t migrate that far south anymore.

This Story is about impermanence, toads, caribou and the forest.

Coming Soon: Magic Spells

300 hundred years ago, one of my ancestors, a Josep Bill, sat at his desk at night, in the house in which we both grew up, and copied out strange words and spells and symbols. The many pages show how threatened and insecure people were in their life on earth, though they yearned, as do we,  for assurance and protection. Confidence, optimism and happiness were not  part of the conversation;  people put their faith into religion  and magic spells instead. 

This story is family lore and I remember my grandfather telling us children about the magic book that was kept between the pages of our family bible. In the 1970s, after our family emigrated, a local teacher transcribed the spells and published their account in a small booklet called Zauberspruche, Doktorbucher und andere Schriften. 

‘Magic Spells’ is part 3 of the Fear series, which also includes: ‘Shadows on the Wall’, ‘Seeds of Doubt’, ‘Potato Bugs’ and ‘Lake Cabonga’

August 13, 2021

Story 53: Seeds of Doubt

In the middle of the night, I will sometimes wake up in our small  orange tent to listen to my growing seeds of doubt, will trace their shaping forms in my mind, will question the what ifs that lurk nearby. (See Links 37 and 38)

‘Seeds of Doubt is part 2 of the Fear series, which also includes: ‘Shadows on the Wall’, ‘Magic Spells’, ‘Potato Bugs’ and ‘Lake Cabonga’.

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A Summer Replay: Path

Last winter a man I met in a small northern community told me that when he was young he would hunt for Caribou with his uncle. One evening, at dusk, he watched as thousands of the large lumbering animals moved not as one, but swirled in all directions. He said that the ground moved and shook with noise and motion. But the caribou don’t migrate that far south anymore.

This Story is about impermanence, toads, caribou and the forest.

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August 6, 2021

A Summer Replay: Silkworms

Of course there is no guarantee that change, and the stirrings of a thousand earthworms will restore life, there is always the chance that it won’t. Life is not predictable and it might not end as happily as you once hoped. Nonetheless, even if choice seems faint, do remind yourself that you don’t have to wait for the frail promises of your unraveling life.

Silkworms spin together no-till farming, silkworms and life transitions.

Coming Soon: Seeds of Doubt

In the middle of the night, I will sometimes wake up in our small  orange tent to listen to my growing seeds of doubt, will trace their shaping forms in my mind, will question the what ifs that lurk nearby.

‘Seeds of Doubt is part Two in the Fear series, which also includes: ‘Shadows on the Wall’, ‘Magic Spells’, ‘Potato Bugs’ and ‘Lake Cabonga’.